Schrödinger's Pickle

But, let me go back to the beginning. I got a call from my aunt on January 8th that my mom had made the decision to die with dignity. No more treatments, surgeries that only prolonged her pain. I dropped everything and went to her hospital with Joe and the boys, and we said goodbye. That night,  both boys were sick all night. And all day. And I spent it caring for them and cleaning. And then, I got it. It was probably the gastroenteritis that was going around Galen's school. But, for the next week, we all spent taking turns being sick. But, Saturday the 16th, at 2:40something am, I woke up to pee, and grabbed my e-leash (phone), swiped to unlock, and that was the moment my sister called. (I groggy asked myself if I had somehow accidentally called her, and was ready to hang up...and then I remembered the call we were all waiting for.) At this point, I hadn't been able to take any of my much needed thyroid and psych meds for 5 days. And been sick. Brushing my hair was not eve...

Hey, guess what time it is?  Just in time for a Valentine's Day order, I'm doing pre orders on my to-do lists again, because I'm running out and I know Connie wants hers :D  So, how do you get one of these super awesome to do lists that you see all over my instagram? You pre order it here! Pretty ordering closed! My minimum goal is 12 pads, but the more the merrier! I will make the order on February 12th, or the day I get 50 orders, whichever is first!

I haven't cooked anything more difficult than microwaveable all year. Ok, for 2 days. Hardee-har-har, Jeni. There have been sandwiches and shakes and takeout and....ugh. I know detoxing isn't a thing, but I feel better when I eat things that are either made by me or fresh. Hell, even super fat and calorie laden foods taste better than takeout. Maybe I should try opening my Joy of Cooking? It's got wonderful recipes like how to cook bear. 😅 Anyway, I wrote out a game plan for the month, and that includes finishing the last of my paid projects, finishing gifts, AND knitting my first sweater. In the meantime, I am going to bed! Goodnight!!

I didn't really set any resolutions this year, because if I was really going to change something, I'd have done it before January the firsty-first. But, here are some things from 2015! I made enough in sales to have to pay taxes. Yipes. I fell in love with Starbucks shaken iced green tea (and the lemonade). And, subsequently, more in love with Tazo's hot Zen green tea. I gave over 50 knit Hobbes dolls to local DV shelters for the kids. I designed a rug. I joined Weight Watchers. Which is weird. But, I've lost 15 lbs. (Mostly from moving more.) I started about 20 projects that still need to be finished. So, there will be more lists. I will probably even share some recipes. But there will definitely be more making of things. Besides, you can see my workspace, with in-progress BB-8's. ;)

Check out my new Dry Erase board over at Zazzle!! Chalkboard Dry Erase Board

We all have organizers and planners, and they all have to-do lists in them, but in every to-do list in our organizers, they fall short. At least 5 lines short. These lists aren't meant to replace day planners, but enhance them. The list fits snugly onto the pages of a 5.5"x8.5" planner, and with room to spare on full sized 8.5"x11" planners. There's a habit tracker, to add what you think you need to add. Need to get better about taking your medication? Write it down. Have trouble getting out of the house? Add it to the list. Keep things that you want to make a habit out of your to do list and in their own section where you can focus on them in their own ways.  Have daily goals you want to meet? Not getting enough water? Or maybe you want to read for 2 hours every day. Add these to your goals, and watch as you start making time to fulfilling your goals. Then, there's the to-do list. If you're anything like me, "Clean Kitchen" on a...

The light glistens harshly on your smooth black surface. Your hardened exterior protects the world from what you hold inside, But we both know that you want what every mother wants: For her children to be safe. For her children's needs to be met. It's only a matter of time. We have resigned ourselves to our futures. Your seed has been planted. Our time is limited, and there is no one to help us. One last meal. One last conversation. *sploosh* *SCREEEEEEEEEEEECH* (More like this to come! It's October, get ready for some creepy poetry!)